"Ah!  Jane.  But I want a wife."
"Do you, sir?"
"Yes:  is it news to you?"
"Of course:  you said nothing about it before."
"Is it unwelcome news?"
"That depends on circumstances, sir--on your choice."
"Which you shall make for me, Jane.  I will abide by your decision."
"Choose then, sir her who loves you best."
"I will at least choose her I love best.  Jane, will you marry me?"
"Yes, sir."
"A poor blind man, whom you will have to lead about by the hand?"
"Yes, sir."
"A crippled man, twenty years older than you, whom you will have to
wait on?"
"Yes, sir."
"Truly, Jane?"
"Most truly, sir."
"Oh! my darling!  God bless you and reward you!"
"Mr. Rochester, if ever I did a good deed in my life--if ever I
thought a good thought--if ever I prayed a sincere and blameless
prayer--if ever I wished a righteous wish,--I am rewarded now.  To
be your wife is, for me, to be as happy as I can be on earth."

She lives

"When you're living, nothing happens. The settings change, the scenario changes, the volume changes, people come in and out, but that's all. No ends or beginnings and that's why it's not easy. Days are tacked on to days without rhyme or reason. Days are tacked on to days on endless monotonous addiction. That's why it's not easy. When you start counting day, recounting years and telling storys you think are true, that's when your living becomes a life. And in fact it's not that fucking hard."

 

Esta noite sonhei contigo...

"How long can you miss someone?"

21 de Outubro de 2009. A minha vida mudou.

Disorder

"I've been waiting for a guide to come
and take me by the hand
Could these sensations make me feel
the pleasures of a normal man
New sensations bear the innocence -
leave them for another day
I've go the spirit, lose the feeling
take the shock away

It's getting faster, moving faster now,
it's getting out of hand
On the tenth floor, down the backstairs
into no-man's land
Lights are flashing,
cars are crashing,
getting frequent now
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it
out somehow

What means to you,
what means to me -
and we will meet again
I'm watching you, I watch it all
I take no pity from friends
Who is right and who can tell,
and who gives a damn right now
Until the spirit, new sensation
takes hold - then you know
I've got the spirit, but lose the feeling"